saw_me_obsessed

Things are so different now.
I am happy.
I have love in my life and I don't have to pay emotionally for it.
Thank fuck I got out of there when I did.
I hate how I have to write this in here and not my 'real' LJ......

Lying here after an incredible sex session, listening to Jeff Buckley sing Leonard Cohens Hallelujah. The lyrics come up" Well I've seen ur flag on the marble arch, aaaaand love is not a victory march, It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah" I understand now what that means. I love 2 guys, one who wooould do anything for me and loves me, even though we arent sexually compatible and the other who has proven in the past that he can live without me, be admits I'm the most sexually compatible person to him. Life and love are unfair.